真是不愉快的最后一天。

或许我不应该问那个问题，
那样问让你有机会回避。
既然你没回答，
我想我已经知道你的答案了。

另一边厢，
干吗一直缠着我？
我又不是红娘中心。
我已经够伤心了。

过了今天，
就是新的开始了。
明天，
我会很开心的。

该叫我出去的人没叫我出去。
不该叫我出去的人却叫我出去。
更糟的是，叫我出去的是应该叫我出去的人的好朋友。
那我应该跟不该叫我出去的人出去吗？
如果一直等那个应该叫我出去的人，该等到他叫我出去吗？
其实跟不该叫我出去的人出去也不错，
反正该叫我出去的人是不会叫我出去的。
-_-"

我以为你会发简讯给我。
前几次，你都说我比你快几秒，所以今天，
我没有发，看看你几点才会发来。
结果，没有。
或许，我根本就不该给自己太大的希望。


圣诞节，
其实，我想了很久，才做出这个决定。
那不是有意的，可是买了，就得给。
有点害怕。
结果，还是以平常心给了。

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很好看。我十分喜欢陈可辛的拍摄手法。很有意义，且让人感动。利用三兄弟情，反映出当时的社会环境，百姓为了米饭所作出的事，让我热泪盈眶。也显现出战争的可怕及残酷，人性可以变得如此丑陋。为了名利和女人，皆可反目成仇。另一边厢，有着视死如归的兄弟，为了兄弟情，不惜牺牲自己的性命。强烈的对比，细腻的编排，感人肺腑。

i have been a movie fanatic these few weeks, especially after that particular movie week. and ta da!~ i've finished watching nancy drew movie and princess diaries I and II, and half of ella enchanted (the other half wasn't uploaded)!!!


oh my god! i so love the way emma roberts is dressed! i suppose she'll look pretty in every way because she has such a petite build. aw... i'm so envious. :P


see! checkered skirt, retro dress and big headbands which make her look neither too mature nor out of fashion! :) the heroine in her times!


i didn't know princess diaries first poster looked like this!!! it's so hilarious!~ nevertheless, it's a well-paced movie which i seriously enjoyed. it certainly drew in the crowds for the sequel.


the second poster looked better, but the movie wasn't that fantastic. plot revolves round the princess's love life and i thought she would end up with michael, which apparently, she ended up with some random guy she knew at the ball. love at first sight is the thing i don't believe in. well, i suppose, a show would have to be a show.

so this is how i celebrate my christmas. can anybody upload the rest of ella enchanted please???

we went to jane's house after lesson for a movie marathon! jane's brother refused to lend us his tv although we didn't mind letting him join us. so we gossipped gossipped and probably we, probably I, gossipped a little too loud and he overhead our quiet whisperings! he stood up and left the tv. we won!

first movie was scary movie 4! prepare for the frights!!! on the contrary, the dialogues were capricious but i couldn't get the punch. i only watched ju-on prior to that, so the only scenes i understood were those relating to ju-on. such a pity.


following up next was rain's cyborg movie which served as a perfect bedtime story. :) unfortunately, i fell asleep on jane's cozy cushion and missed the entire story.


we decided to get one english movie, one korean movie, and last but not least, a chinese movie. i suggested golden chicken without knowing the content. guess what? very exciting indeed...... i suppose it was a r21 movie.

i would have hopped onto the car if i had known it would place me as the 'first'.
i would have waved to you when my bus was just beside your car.
i would have cancelled my outing and initiated an outing with you.
i would have blabbered non-stop to you.
but all these require enormous courage which i couldn't mustard.
did you know that even requesting a simple meeting, like today, was tormentous and tedious?
did you know that you reply reeeaally slowly?
did you know someone was waiting?
silly.

not having to go back delights me more than anything. what i had said was from the bottom of my heart though i denied it and you thought i had meant it as a joke. on second thoughts, it was the unrelenting yellings from my heart. :)

thanks for not coming today, because you certainly made it a bright and cheery day, despite the heavy and never-ending rain. :)

thanks for your reprimanding on almost everything. it helps me to grow. grow more cynical and sarcastic towards your way of doing things. i hate you but i don't know why. i think i could bombard you on the very last day but i'll feel too guilty to do that. besides, why should i help you grow? :)

an evil plan is blossoming. :)



as's drink.. the lovely babe who fetched me home today!


the coffee which they claimed it's better than starbuck's. =P

words.

so clear, yet so hurtful, so simple, yet so hard to say.

to say or not to say.

all troubles begin with mouths. stuffing back only creates internal injuries.

friendships.

long duration or whether both click.

***

elaine and i were talking throughout the first half of pbf. second half was snoozing time! haha! she promised she wouldn't sleep, but she has said that many many times. :P i really envy her for being courageous enough to date guys!!! :) she told me she can take the initiative, but some guys are so dumb that she could beat beat beat around the bush until there're no more leaves, but they still couldn't get it. so funny! :D

***

some sweet appreciation which is so rare these days!!!

you're finally back.

if i had counted down everyday to today, at least i deserve more than a mere hi-bye, don't i? probably i should just remain a girls' girl like i always do.

Leave (郭靜)
Oh　淚水　是一種防備　　
是厭倦在你心裡的負累　
我不想再去追　 再追只是掉眼淚　
心還有感覺　就該給自己機會

Oh　孤單　是一種純粹　　
是愛退去後再沒有所謂　
我能夠學得會　 學會一個人面對　
愛不能是誰　應該綁住的絕對

離開後才能勇敢追　
追尋心中另一個　世界　
我不要完美　只要能再回到原位

我只要找到另一個感覺　
相信明天一定有誰　
能給我安慰　原來就在我周圍

how depressing!!! ah qin's not in singapore for the autograph session! so there's none of his autograph!!! =(


gr is superb!!! the best camera man ever!!! but i got the risk of getting bashed up when he started to criticise many many things and people. wah! thank god i survived!

it's finally thursday, when i can not go to work, and return back to what i am supposed to be, tomorrow. i really wonder, if i am studying part time or working part time. 4 days of work and 3 days of school is upsetting the balance. even then, 3 days of school is a bit exaggerating, because in fact, i only have 12 hours of school per week, which is only half a day!

anyway, i am beginning to feel that being a student is much much better than being an employee. in fact, i dislike the idea of being an employee. i totally abhor being bossed around, even when i'm at home. so, cheerios to END OF thursdays!~ :)

i ate a bloody lot today.



christmas decorations are up! christmas... i like this festival the most.


***

i realise today that i'm a girls' girl. i'm still not quite accustomed to taking the initiative to talk to guys and i am defnitely more comfortable with girls around. this is quite bad, frankly speaking, very bad. my new working environment doesn't tolerate girls' girl type of girls. hard time.

and i finally realise, how easy it is to differentiate whether you like a person or not.

celebration! it's celebration!~

we dined at crystal jade as what the birthday girl wanted!~ :) how misfortunate to keep forgetting to take pictures of the sumptuous food until we're at the last dish.

yum! yum!

some random shots!



the 2 birthday girls! and i apologise for the repeated failed shots!!! :P


all the participants! :D


just the girls!


saw this on my friend's nick. how emo but that's what i have been trying to do.
也许放弃才能靠近你，不再见你你才会把我记起

***
back track a little, my boss asked if i would put on makeup. i said no, i'm too lazy. then he told me that girls should at least doll up themselves. my god. so that means, i used to look even worse without rebonded hair and contact lenses, isn't it? he suggested to me to pluck my eyebrows so i wouldn't look so fierce. in the first place, do i look fierce? :P

because only you all would understand what i'm saying here.

it's the first day of work at the car leasing company. work was simple and easy but nobody to talk to. boss wasn't in so i was alone.

walking the paths of every past steps brought back memories. pleasant, sweet memories which gradually turned to sourness. i really do miss my ica friends and my work there.

how linda and sharleen would wait for me at lavender mst station now turned to a poof of empty air; how we'd walk into the ica building and teased the security guard, but i can only gaze at the tight-controlled door which we used to pass by daily(even on saturdays) now; how we'd spent our time sorting out pink and green files in the morning and count down to lunch, when i dread doing work alone and having lunch alone now; how we'd tease each other, sharing inside jokes and laughing together, with me not having any close colleagues, not even having any colleagues even, yet; how we'd wait for each other at the pillar and blamed whoever came down the last, now turned to meaningless noises and unfamiliar strangers; how we'd decide where to go and what to eat and crapped throughout lunch, when i don't even feel like lunching now; how we'd be so busy after lunch attending to the crowd such that we didn't even have the time to drink, only now that work is easy and time crawls; how we'd get free food after a certain queue number, never will i get it again; how we witnessed the change of the whole system, with nothing to look forward to now; how linda would miss call me to see if we'd be working overtime at 5.30pm, leaves me yearning for calls at the end of my job; how as, jy, ben and me dug for files together amongst extreme untidiness, now not even a file left for me to dig; how as, jy and i would perform the usual routine of going to toilets first then leaving together, with me as the only one embarking on the journey way home now.

when people ask me if i want to return to ica, i said no, because life and work will never be the same again without these people. small footsteps, but large impact. i never knew our friendships would be even more bonded than that of long time friends' and i never knew we clicked that well, just like jigsaw puzzles managed to fit perfectly. i truly, sincerely swear upon my life that i'd never abandon this special group of people even in the later part of my life. i never ever regretted continuing work even after the not-so-nice events. that's where i found true friendship.

every step taken now is full of agony when the best could never be met again.

arh. the movie is fantastically fairy-tale like! giselle is such a lovely name...

giselle from fairy tale story came into 21st century and found herself lost from her prince charming. the poor lady created jokes and troubles for the lawyer who is living in modern world. the evil stepmother from fairy tale land managed to track her down and plotted a murder by persuading her to eat the poisoned apple. the prince from fairy tale land couldn't revive her using his kiss but the lawyer managed to. aw... when would my prince charming come?

i thought the movie deserve 5 stars, well done in every way. i like the music, the costumes, the actors, the scenes, the script, the plot, and most importantly, the ending!

when you dream hard, dreams do come true!

totally a movie week for me.

and missy elaine got me motivated to d-i-y, but i still have no idea what i should d-i-y. probably i should start with my file or make cards for the upcoming christmas? but dear me, it's such an expensive hobby...

giselle, giselle, call me giselle... :)